Not Falling Back

 I have chosen not to fall back.

     What do you mean?

I will not move my clock back one hour to accommodate for transitioning into Standard Time from Daylight Time.

      What is Standard Time, Daylight Time?

The names are just designated periods of time to associate the two points of reference in time of day.  Standard Time is in effect for only about one-third of the year, Sunday 1 November 2020 - Sunday 14 March 2021.  Daylight Time is the remaining two-thirds of the year.  Standard Time takes solar noon to be 12:00 noon.  Daylight Time takes solar noon to be 13:00 or one hour past noon, 1 hour post meridian, 1 pm.

     What?

Apparently most people don't understand time or the concept of noon.  That's too bad.  Unfortunately an entire country, except for a few nestled regions are completely oblivious to the negative, unhealthy or any true effects of changing the time of reference for the day.

     *Typical confused response defending their background of obviousness*

In the past, the person I might have been may have responded cruelly to the abhorrent ignorance and stupidity of all these people who's unwitting existence negatively impacts my own.  I am now with the intention to develop kindness for the universe wherein I exist.

     How did this intention come to be?

I was working on how I respond to the transition to Standard Time.  After considering the entirety of my response the only way to achieve a positive and healthy perspective was through kindness.

     I want more.

More what?

     Kindness in this wisdom of not falling back.

By not falling back you are being kind to the most important person, yourself.

     How is not falling back being kind to myself?  I will have to learn about time and consider other people's concept of time in my daily life.

Is it so unkind to yourself to learn or consider other people?

     No, but why would you choose to fall back?

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Moving on from and into

Moving on from and into each moment. What about moving on from and into each moment? What about it? I love it!  To move on from is not to forget but to respect and be thankful for the moment.  If the moment was unpleasant moving on from the unpleasantry may bring objectivity and sympathy.  I love moving into each moment also.  As the next moment approaches our only opportunity for action and response is our choice!  Sometimes similar moments reoccur and each time is a new opportunity for your action and response.

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Fibonacci Fitness

 Fibonacci Fitness is fitness with a fibonacci sequence.

For example, air squats.  Using the fibonacci sequence perform air squats.  

What is the fibonacci sequence?  The sequence of 1, 1, 2, 3, 5, etc. The next number in the sequence is the sum of the previous two.

For me I enjoy what I call the fibonacci mountain where I perform an exercise by following the sequence up then back down.

I am grateful for Jake Atwell in his intrigue of this pattern of exercise I created and for the titling of Fibonacci Fitness.

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I Don't Want to Post This

 Self-advocacy

The annoying chore for positive expansion.  

I'm too annoyed to advocate for myself in a positive and healthy way.  I'd prefer to advocate for others before myself or to administer the business of other's before my own.  I feel most best when I am speaking out on behalf of anyone other than myself.

Am I though?  I've done a lot of work advocating for myself with myself.  I am afraid to advocate for myself with others.  Too afraid of responding in a negative and unhealthy way.

What does it mean to advocate for yourself with yourself?

I mean for self-advocacy with myself are all the things for me to do to be a positive and healthy person.  I'm recognizing the annoying need to have an income.  An income is derived from a lot of self-advocacy with others.  Advocating how excellent and superior one is or how competent and articulate they are or how generous, kind and wonderful they are in a very coherent and expected manner.

Coherent?  Expected manner?

Coherence isn't happening here with me.  Perhaps writing this post will help develop coherence in my existence.

Expected manners are not for me either.  Expected manners possess so much annoying subjectivity in their existence.  In my experience, if there is someone new with whom I am to develop any relationship I find the process easier to have an advocate to help them in fully appreciating me.

Which brings us back to advocacy!

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A beginning

A Ladybug friend invited me to consider blogging some posts about the people who have helped me along the way.  

I feel all kinds of emotions about writing such posts.  I feel thankfulness, gratitude and privilege.  I feel vulnerability and inadequacy.  I feel encouraged and strengthened by her consideration.

You about We

 09:22 Fri/Moon 2 October 2020

                                                The Room

   I came to journal about journaling.

    Stream of consciousness 

            of feelings, 

            of thoughts.

To give clarity in the best of my ability of consciousness.

In this conscious is where the I of me mounts my communion, my love, my sense of self, my expression and my environment.  

Above the I of me is the guide of God.  

The guide of God gives the I of me 

and from this I of me I commune 

and from this communion - love 

and from this love a sense of self becomes apparent 

and from this sense of self I find expression 

and from this expression I effect the environment.

    How is all this done?

    It is done in self-control and gentleness, in faithfulness and generosity, in kindness and patience in peace, joy and love.

    Beautiful.  Thank you Tyler for journaling.  You have been told of your potential; snarled by twisted expression; made serious changes to your consciousness because you accepted that part of you wasn't effecting your environment in a positive and healthy way.

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Your Own World

We are always in our own world.

We meet when we share our own world - our perspectives and perceptions, joys and concerns.  Whatever our world may be is only available to others if we choose to share.

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Continuing Influence

 Hello Tyler. Say hello Tom. Hi Tyler. Hello Tom.

I'm happy about our final conversation.  It was a difficult one to have and I was pleased to practice with you in setting boundaries, sharing feelings and past hurts.  You shared confusing behaviors as a small boy, how in this week of August at some point you married your first wife and another point your mother died and now at this point the mental health condition of the woman who you provided room and board for the past year and a half worsened.  You began to weep - something you are known to never do.

When I shared my boundary, Tom posed the consideration for why do I feel so indignant when he says time does not exist.  I shared how the notion is profoundly ignorant.  Without boundaries there would be no space, any motion of boundaries inherently possesses time.  When Tom made his comments that "time does not exist" he did so when a person who was engaged in a conversation with him said they "didn't have the time for . . ."  I suggested some alternative statements, at least in my presence.  Again he encouraged me to consider why I felt so indignant and again I shared about inherent existences.  He did not wish to pursue the metaphysical rabbit hole where he would feel trapped.

I then asked Tom what is existence? after he again for the third time encouraged me to consider why I felt so indignant when he says time does not exist.  Tom did not have a response for existence other than he did not know what is existence.  I said I haven't given much thought also into what is existence but I have discovered a part of existence, "We do not need proof of God's existence - existence is proof."

We sat quietly for a while thereafter.  He gets a text from a mutual friend and goes to the bathroom and I to the balcony for a smoke.  On our reunion after our intermission Tom shares how he would not like me sharing his personal business as they do not know all the circumstances.  I shared how I was feeling vulnerable.  We shared our appreciation for one another for being able to share what we are feeling and why.

After another moment of silence we discover the mentally distressed woman will arrive to "pack up."  I remind Tom that I cannot stay at his apartment all day and he has a choice to let her in or not and that someone else who is likely more sane will arrive with a truck to load up her stuff.  He chose to allow her entry.  He seemed compelled to help the forlorn woman although his help was hapless to his health.

I go about my day and in the evening at twenty after twenty-two returned Tom's voicemail requesting boxes.  He was likely dead by then as the last time he called me was twenty of seventeen.  I did not find out about Tom's death until Sunday afternoon from the dear Melanie E.

That was my last day with Tom but not the last of his influence.

Written Friday of Venusweek about the morning of Thursday of Tuesweek of Late Summer 2020.  Published Venusday of the Sunweek of Early Autumn 2020.

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Execute

 Hello Tyler good evening.  How was your day 19 August 2020?

I had an interesting day being there for my friend Tom.  He could no longer care for his flat mate.  He was heartbroken.

I was feeling heartbroken earlier in the day in response to my last therapy appointment with my therapist.  The feeling occured as I was having breakfast.  I paused to take the time to feel the heartbreak.  Soon the feeling quelled and I continued on with my breakfast in serenity.

After his flatmate left, Tom acknowledged he was feeling sad and that he will take this moment to feel his sadness.  While feeling sad Tom thanked me for my friendship.  Tom was very brave and courageous to share his feeling of sadness.  I am currently practicing doing the same with my feelings - to recognize, accept and share.

I did a lot for Tom this day.  I made myself present.  I gave him a ride.  I began to straighten up the mess of his flatmate.  His flatmate returned and I informed her she needed to take responsibility for herself and her emotions.  She was semi-coherent in her deluge of mental illness.  After watching her for half an hour as she rummaged about her room I checked with Tom and it was time for her to quit rummaging and take whatever she needed for the streets.  In the past few weeks numerous people were informed of this eventual situation of hers and no one, except for a woman's shelter offered a place for her.  So I informed her to gather whatever she needed for the streets.  I carried out an eviction for Tom.  I changed the lock on his door.  I validated and did not judge him for his emotion of sadness.  We've done much for one another over the course of our friendship.

Accept Dinner Invitations

 Had I declined dinner my friend believes he may have died.

 I arrived at ten minutes after seven post meridiem at my friend's penthouse apartment on the highest point of town with groceries for him and dinner after completing the trifecta.  Upon entering the apartment I find my friend sitting in the chair to the left of the doorway.  He shared how his heart felt not good and was behaving strangely.  I place my hand on his shoulder.  He continues to share how he's practicing a form of meditation to improve his condition.  

His unsigned flat mate has some mental health condition and her condition appears to be getting worse.  She had been involuntarily committed to a facility three times in the past year or less.  When I arrived the apartment was a mess.  A mix of her stuff and his was in the foyer.  Her stuff was overflowing out of her room into the foyer then into the kitchen and bathroom.  She was talking to someone who wasn't there and when she peeked around the door she took an extra long moment to recognize me.  Soon she gathered some items then left.

Eventually his heart began to regain composure.  I began the process of straightening up the apartment.  He apologized for being unable to assist with the clean-up.  As I'm cleaning up he comes to the conclusion that had I not arrived his heart condition would likely have worsened.  The night prior was beginning similarly to this evening but escalated to the point where my friend called the police for their safety.  The police could or would not help nor will the hospital accept his petition. 

It took about two hours to clean up enough of the mess to have dinner ten minutes before ten post meridiem.

The above was written on the Wednesday of Tuesweek of late summer 2020 and published on the Moonday of Sunweek of early Autumn of the same year.

Feeling Urgey

 

What is this urgeyness?  

It's a discontentment.  A wanting desire for some vice.  A frustration.

  

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Chakra Yoga

Use the chakras as a framework for a yoga sequence.

I discovered answers at this site to which I have no current affiliation.

https://www.chakras.info/yoga-root-chakra/

Have a browse for yourself and combine whatever poses suit you.

For me my first sequence was

Root: Standing forward bend and wide legged standing forward bend

Sacral: Chair and pigeon

Solar: Sitting Twist and Warrior

Heart: Cobra and camel

Throat: Bridge and shoulder stand

Third-eye: Down dog

Crown: Any meditative resting position

This first sequence didn't flow so well but it's a start!

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Square Side 'A'

What four basic degree attachments connect us to this reality whereby attachment results in a positive foundation for navigating higher degree attachment?

Why four?

What is attachment and degrees thereof?

I'll get to some answers in another post.

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Gnoet

 Muted expression

Quelled and quieted

Twisted for sure

Validation and sympathy

Soothing relaxing easing 

Encouragement and affirmation

Strengthen and straighten

When ready

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A brief look back

How do I survive?

Do I survive well or ignorantly?

Practice survival well so surviving well becomes habitual.

In time wisdom of failure may know the difference.

An emendation of thoughts on surviving during my circumstance in the Venusweek of 2018.

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You want

 Another blog post without direction.

In blogs without direction sometimes content is challenging due to lack of context.  

Context does exist in some way -

I'm here to share.

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Learning to Live in Love

What is a blog spot?

This is a spotty bloggy.

Processing.

Time?

No such thing.

No way.

Heal your heart - share your feelings.

Scary!

Processing.

Time?

No Such thing.

Okay.

Heart breaks.

The Moon in the Sagittarian Southwest with Jupiter and Saturn in Capricorn at 22:12 Venusday and week 26 Augustus 2020.

Pluto is between Jupiter and Saturn.

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Simple Stuffs

For breakfast I try to consistently have coffee and oatmeal with molasses and trail mix.

Each of the four are their own ingredient.

Yum.

Dedicated to Houzer the old house cat for presenting me a young bird.

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An Existential Spectrum

 The heavenly bodies have associated chakras of the human body.

Sun - Crown

Moon - Third Eye

Mercury - Throat

Venus - Heart

Mars - Solar Plexus

Jupiter - Sacral

Saturn - Root

Dedicated to Leezle, thanks for the nudge to continue publishing.

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Love week cometh

 Holding my heart close is what I will do in the week to come.

Practicing and focusing on self-care will take priority.

In this practice I may strengthen and straighten what was tied and twisted.

With my strength and composure rejuvenated I may once again make myself vulnerable in service.

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Mongoloid

 What is it torroid?   It's more prevalent amongst Asians?

Yeah, I don't know, I inherited this knowledge or ignorance.

Well apparently I can't find anything for a common term except for 'supernumerary' and apparently yes the condition of hyperdontia is more prevalent amongst Asians and Native Americans.

"The reported incidence of  supernumerary teeth ranges 0.3–1.7% of the population with greater frequency in Asians and Native Americans.1 According to previous studies, supernumerary teeth more frequently found in permanent dentition with a male predilection."

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3669903/

Here's a photo of two supernumerary teeth.

https://www.pinterest.ca/pin/297026537911851480/

Something Considered

Advise for Intriguing Mysteries, Learning to Live & Let Live, and Finding the Heart Center, respectively:

"Realize your thoughts through action;"

 "Express yourself without being offensive;"

"Dare to fail."

The aforementioned advise is that of  Gary Goldschneider; the following are my insights of his advice.

The first one especially was considered.  So much is contained in such a short sentence.  Three topics from the sentence to consider were 'realize', 'thought' and 'action.'  The latter was considered first followed by 'thought' and 'realize' last.  

For action I considered the theory of action and response, and spontaneous action.  I found spontaneous action to be perplexing as most actions are responses to prior actions to prior responses and so on.

For thought - I thought - the thought needs to be grounded and clear to realize the desired thought.  Moreover, the thought needs to consider responses to actions.  For me writing out my thoughts is a very real way to clarify and ground my thoughts and to consider the response.

For realize - I realized - the process of thinking and acting is the process for self-actualization!  That is to say to realize something is to manifest it, to actualize it, to accomplish or complete it, to bring it into existence.

Expressing myself without being offensive relates to my fear of myself and how other's responded to a fearful me.  Two positive examples of me expressing a fearful me to another in a positive way include: informing Shawn that I was in a mood and needed to take a moment; informing my supervisor I wasn't feeling well and could only perform certain tasks.  In both instances of the action of expressing myself the persons present responded kindly and were understanding.  This is the new narrative!

Dare to fail is a challenge.  I don't want to fail.  I'm afraid to fail.  The statement 'Dare to fail' is a call to practice to push my practice just a wee bit further.  The statement is a boost for courage for bravery.  The statement is a pat on the back for making an attempt to try for something to take a step.

Love.

God Gives Gifts

 19 August 2020

I met a man for the first time Ed in the nineteenth hour who spontaneously shared how he is currently practicing recognizing his pre-judgements of a person acknowledging the thought then choosing to be open minded and curious about that person.  A thought or feeling cannot be resolved without first acknowledgement followed by acceptance and concluding with a choice of response.

Earlier, in the tenth hour of the day in my last therapy appointment with Molly the very same practice of resolving pre-judgements was encouraged in response to my concerns of moving on to my new therapist.

Before Midnight

 Just making this post now cuz the post I'm working on isn't done yet and it's almost midnight.

A very very good friend suggested making a post a day for the practice!

Early Geometry

 Patterns to live by.

An omeric work cycle is one example of a pattern to live by.

What patterns do you acknowledge?

There are a few natural patterns.  Already mentioned is the octave consisting of seven sequential unique expressions of a given type.  The eighth is most similar to the first and so on in either direction.  An example of an octave pattern can be found in music.  

Z

Inspiring day

Backwards forth 

Fanatical rush

X

Sometimes gibberish

Consistency compounds

No keep going

Y

Practice - the practice

Love lights

Start where finished

Some Lady

 You only have two things to worry about: if you are wealthy or if you are not.  If you are not wealthy, then you only have two things to worry about: if you are healthy or if you are not.  If you are not healthy then you only have two things to worry about: if you are recovering or not.  If you are not recovering then you only have two things to worry about: if you will live or not.  If not then you have nothing to worry about.

A healthy presumably wealthy foxy silver fitness instructor shared the above lightness of life with me one cold evening in late autumn of 2017 in a Starbucks.

Stick with it

In a before time when prolonged pervasive social distancing was not a reality - I was sitting in a Starbucks at 18:50 on a Friday on a Moonweek of late summer of last year.

Whilst sitting hoping for some conversation a woman asks if I would watch her laptop while she went to the loo.

Later I asked if she has a moment for polite conversation.  She declined due to her devotion to studying for the board at Doylestown Hospital.  

Congratulations Mary Ann Williamson on your board certification.

Hope you had fun in Florida after passing the exam.  The Masquerade Ball has been cancelled this year due to prolonged pervasive social distancing.

What is write

 Simply writing this counts as a blog post!

Is there a goal or any specific direction to this blog or post?

Some say, the way will open.

The Trifecta

 Yoga, Swim, Calisthenics

These are the best exercises for the most versatle muscle memory.  The muscle memory created causes the body to move in a more naturally flowing manner.  This movement may cause others to perceive the mover as confident, beautiful and intelligent.

The trifecta of exercises are the best for beginners through to masters in any field or practice.  

Omer

Work six days take a day off - that's one week.

Work six weeks take a week off - that's one omer.

An omer is a six or seven week period.

The weeks of an omer progress similarly to days of a week.  Omer's begin with Sunweek and progress through to Saturnweek.

The beginning of each omer are the natural holidays.  The natural holidays are the equinoxes, solstices and the crosses between them.  The eve and day of the natural holiday must be in the same week.  That is, if a natural holiday is on a Sunday the week prior will be considered the Sunweek to accommodate for the eve.

The days of the week and weeks of the omer are named after heavenly bodies.

Sun: Sunday: Sunweek
Moon: Monday: Moonweek
Mercury: Tuesday: Hermesweek
Venus: Wednesday: Venusweek
Mars: Thursday: Aresweek
Jupiter: Friday: Zeusweek
Saturn: Saturday: Saturnweek

There are eight omers per year.  Five omers are seven weeks long and three omers are six weeks long.

Practice

Distinctions

Beginner
Minimally Competent
Competent
Proficient
Virtuoso
Master

Jerk
Super Jerk

This post is that of a beginner.
Excellent!

Credit belongs to Tom James for declaring these distinctions.